On the other side.

oh, my, GOD. I, like, seriously can’t believe what this bitch up here said about my race. ohmaigod. like, seriously? i’m totally angry right now and i feel like slapping her with my chanel classic. like, right in front of her face. gosh, what IS her problem? what’s the problem with family members visiting during weekends? as the sweet, polite, kind, nice, ASIAN girl that my mama taught me to be, *flashes a very hiao smile* i’m not even gonna comment about how she talks and thinks with her boobs that were spilling out of her top. OOPS. i guess i just did. and, like, please don’t take this offensively, but.. CHING CHONG LING LONG TING TONG TO YOU BITCH. that means i hope you get married to an asian one day and have kids who’ll watch this video and feel mindfucked because their mother hates their father, and part of them too in ancient Vietnamese.

okay lah please don’t take my way of typing up there seriously. i don’t talk like her. but i can. but it doesn’t mean i will. k.

but just as a person, you don’t have the rights to say whether someone has been taught manners of all. so, what does bitching in your video say about the manners your mom taught you?

really can’t stand watching bimbos.

and i don’t just mean the blonde kind. there’s also this one particular malaysian bimbo that makes me feel stupid for just being malaysian. she’s the FLOM, if you know what i’m saying. this one thing she said about japan.. i don’t even know man. it’s one of the things that make you raise an eyebrow when you hear it. because it doesn’t make sense at all.

how in the world can earthquakes be caused by our own doings? how can earthquakes be caused by careless environmentally-friendly planning and development in a country? so, wow. if japan ever considered climate change and green technology, it wouldn’t be in this situation right now. and basically this catastrophe should teach japan a lesson, says the bimbo. OMG FLOM you’re such a genius! seriously, why didn’t anyone think about that! D:

but yeah just a word of advice. don’t go commenting about japan if you don’t know what earthquakes really are. this applies to everyone that’s on par with FLOM, mentally and intellectually.

LOOK AT THE STUFF HAPPENING AROUND US.

protests and shit in libya, yemen, and everywhere else idontknowcuzidontreadthenews.

natural disasters like the earthquakes in christchurch and japan.

AND, this month, the moon will be really close to the earth. some say that it’s gonna cause natural disasters too. probably because of the gravitational pull.

WHYYYY. WHY MUST THIS HAPPEN. i’m not even married yet! i haven’t even achieved anything yet. i haven’t even experienced the joy of using credit cards. i haven’t even been to the USA. so many things that i haven’t done yet, the world just can’t end so soon.

maybe God’s pissed with us. for all the pollution, for not loving nature. for exploiting all our resources. and for humans to kill each other because of our selfish interests. maybe this is God’s way of teaching us a lesson. He might’ve been thinking “let me show you how it should be done properly” BAM. tsunami+earthquake to wipe out everything.

maybe it’s Japan’s karma. for being so cruel to people during the world war 2 last time. but even if it is karma, it’s still unfair cuz it was the previous generation’s fault what.

OR, maybe it’s an act of God to reduce the overpopulation on earth.

whatever it is, i feel sorry for japan. i love japan. it’s one country i could visit over and over again. it’s the most beautiful asian country i’ve ever visited. i hope it’ll recover soon.

it saddens me to even think about how the survivors are feeling right now. especially those that are separated from their families, not knowing if they’re still alive or not. feeling lost and hopeless. and knowing you have nothing left. SIGH.

what saddens me even more is how some other people are so ignorant and selfish. some people could even go like “aww no more animes from japan ” DUDE, you kidding me? so many people died and all you care about is some stupid anime? yeah, i bet your mom is SO proud of you.

anyways, i hope that japan can restore it’s city and repair all the damages done. i’d gladly help the economy by visiting a few more times. i really don’t mind lor.

so.. i went to pavilion yesterday. we decided to have dinner at sakae sushi. the waitress came to inform us before we ordered, that the chicken and beef dishes aren’t available. because they’re not fresh anymore.

probably not fresh anymore because no one ever goes there because it SUCKS.

k. anyways. so we just decided to order other stuff like.. i dunno. seafood. unagi, salmon, and etc.

did our thing on the monitor thingy.

BUT GUESS WHAT.

another waiter came around and told us that the unagi and salmon are unavailable too. WTFUCK MAN. so you want us to just eat friggin tempura prawns?

sucks i tell you. went to pepper lunch instead and it rocked.

on a side note, i had a weirdass dream where this douchebag kidnapped girls into his massive ship. including me. although i don’t know why anyone would kidnap me but.. yeah. i was kidnapped. was trying to find my way out but i saw my mom? and i was like.. wut. you got kidnapped too?

i hate dreaming about stressful/adventurous stuff. it’s like my brain never gets to rest.

i’m just blogging to waste time. cuz i’m waiting for my online game’s download to be done hehehehe i’m such a dork.

honestly, i can’t stand those girls who claim that some celebrities are their husbands. wtf man, get over yourself. to you, he may be some bigass star, looking utterly handsome, having eargasmic voice. but to him, you might just be a crazy fangirl squealing at the top of your lungs when you’re watching his music video or something. or better yet, he might not even know you exist.

UNLESS. you sent (or decide to send) scarlet letters. like… these:

source: http://www.allkpop.com/2009/12/mblaq_lee_joon_bloody_fan_letter

and this,

THIS… is freaking period blood sprinkled with pubes. WTF. sorry if i’m making you gag hehehehehe.

source: http://www.allkpop.com/2009/11/2pm_taecyeon_scarlet_letter

feel free to read the full news if you want. >__>

i realise i’ve been talking about disgusting things on my blog these days XD okay anyways. i just don’t get it. why do korean fans, no, asian fans in general, gotta be so obsessive? if you have nothing better to spazz about then just go find yourself a boyfriend lah.

and now, jong hyun from shinee has a girlfriend. fanatics are raging behind the tv, computer screens and what not. for what? it’s not like most of you are prettier than se kyung. and it’s not like it is realistic for YOU to be his girlfriend -.-

abrupt end of post because i dont know what else to say.

i know i’m very suaku and i don’t know much about whatever is the ‘hot topic’ on the internet unless someone tells me, but today i found out what 2g1c really is.

so at first i thought it was porno. like.. okay i’m not even gonna say out the abbreviations i’ve thought. it’s actually more than porn okay.

it’s called ’2 girls 1 cup’. what the hell would 2 girls do with 1 cup you might ask.

i searched it up from urbandictionary.com and i got this really REALLY detailed summary.

2 girls make out.

suddenly 1 girl shit into a glass cup.

literally shit. pang sai.

then the two girls EAT from the cup. makan.

then smear the shit onto their faces. smear. like mask, you know?

then dunno how they suddenly vomit. muntah.

wtf.

damn fucking disgusting.

seriously don’t know what these japanese ppl are thinking.

if you’ve seen the vid, good for you. if not, please don’t. save yourself another regret.

I’M DEAD. SO. EFFING. DEAD.

this is not funny okay. i just registered SATs without thinking. without considering the fact that my english has worsened eversince i stopped going for english classes. it’s true that they say without practice, your language skills will worsen.

or in my case, with practice, my skills improved. because i talk like a cheena now. i’ve been practicing english the typical malaysian way. so now, even subconciously, i use broken english fml. FMLFMLFML.

i am in desperate need of improving my english la please someone help me.

on a side note, i think the college board (SAT) is racist. not being quite fair to asians. they asked me to fill in my first name and my last name.

so my first name will be Wan Min.

last name, Chow. because it’s my surname duh.

and THEN they tell me my name on the admission ticket must match with the one on my IC.

well guess what. if you’re angmoh, and your first name is Mary and your last name is Johnson, it would appear as Mary Johnson on the admission ticket.

but i’m asian.

it says Wan Min Chow on the admission ticket.

it says Chow Wan Min on my IC.

so. idunnoanymoreman.

why sulk over someone who took you for granted? someone who clearly doesn’t appreciate you as much as you appreciate him?

i guess love really does blind. not only does it blind someone, it makes someone stupid. stupid in a sense that no matter what others tell you, you’d just be as ignorant as fuck. i would just go to you, with a smirk on my face and say, “see, i told you so.” but i wouldn’t do that since it’s like adding oil to fire, adding salt to the wound or whatever.

i hope you’ve learnt your lesson. cuz i’ve definitely learned mine. that is to never love someone who takes you for granted. someone who looks at other girls and say how hot they are right infront of your fucking face. someone who doesn’t make you feel beautiful. someone who only compliments you when you have make up on. someone who says things that make you uncomfortable. someone who knows you’re uncomfortable about it but still continues. someone who doesn’t take the effort to understand your view on something and you both would end up arguing. someone who threatens you that they’d leave you if you don’t do stuff they ask you to. someone who tells you that they love you, but never mean it. you can just see it in their eyes.

and in the future, i hope you’ll find someone who loves you for all that you are. who loves your flaws just as much. someone who thinks you’re special because of your flaws. someone who respects you, tells you you’re the most beautiful person ever. someone who’s always there whenever you get mad over the littlest things. someone who tells you that he’s lucky to have you. someone who doesn’t think of you as a burden, but instead one who takes away all his burdens. someone who would tell you that they love you, and mean it with all their heart and soul. and maybe, just maybe, someone who would drop on one knee, pull out a diamond ring and ask you to be in his life forever.

dear friend, i hope you’ll find that someone someday. and don’t be afraid to fall in love again because of one rotten egg in the past.

oh wow look! 7th month. that means i let my blog rot for exactly a month lol. and yeah, i’m dropping the whole writing-in-proper-style thing. seemed so pretentious even i can’t stand it D:

anyways, another month has passed by. time really does fly when you’re spending it with people you’re happy with. it passes especially quick when you’re enjoying yourself. vice versa, it’s painfully slow when you aren’t enjoying yourself. life’s unfair just like that.

one more week till the semester exams. a month ago i was stressing about law. well, i was still stressing about it a few weeks ago.. but hallelujah! i dropped the stinking subject and spared my life. now i gotta stress about the other 3 subjects.

and wow. i’m still awake because i did maths from uhh 9ish until 12. i didn’t even realise it was 12. o__o now i’m wide awake because maths screwed me in the brain and i can’t sleep.

oh, this post is supposed to be dedicated to the monthsary.. k.
you definitely are my endless love. we should make that cheesy love song as our song. XD
yaaaa, like taylor swift once sang about how she wanted a song for her and her bf, i want one too. so that i’d be reminded of you whenever i hear that song.
and i could even set it as my ringtone and put it on replay for 10 years like a psycho gf… lol jk.
ahh your exams are coming soon, and so are mine. we’re gonna have exams at the same time. we both must jia you k baby?
it’s been a long and sometimes tough journey, but that only makes us stronger.
happy 7th monthsary baby. mahal kita. ♥

Happy 6th monthsary baby.
Time seriously passed real quickly. It seems just like yesterday when we were just flirting and all XD Just like yesterday when you asked “will you be my girlfriend?”

I’m not gonna write cheesy stuff here so.. yeah. Don’t want people to start feeling nauseous or whatever. D:

School sucks. I have tests this coming week. Then the semester exam next month. Gosh, I’m so afraid for law. Holy shit I have one month to revise everything I learned. ._______.

FML.

Ending on a random note: I love you, Ben. ♥

I feel so vulnerable right now. And sad. And hurt. And angry. And upset. And unhappy.
I’ve felt the same way before, a few years back.
I was more angry last time. I acted real bitchy.
What happened in the end? The bitch won. But I didn’t care.

I really don’t want this to happen this time. Because this time I care. This time, I’m afraid to lose him.
Bah ._. I don’t even know how or what I’m supposed to feel right now.
All I know is I’m scared.